"God, you didn't answer my prayers for a miracle. You didn't intervene and change my circumstances. For a long while you were silent. Now I look at the gift of life. I've never thought about it so directly. What is life? Am I taking it for granted?
"This grief is like a searchlight, uncovering hidden things. I didn't get the life I wanted. I've felt forgotten and left out. My heart hasn't been grateful. In losing my loved ones I've felt ripped open. My illusions are shattered. I stumble a lot.
"Yet I'm fighting to keep my heart open in spite of the emptiness and the tears. And life is right here, patiently waiting for me to look in its direction.
"An awareness arises that life is a gift of great significance, even if the veil covering its beauty and power is sometimes very thick. Show me more, O God."
