"There are days I wish I was whole. I wish I could put down this cross. I envy those who, in their innocence, believe in the innate goodness of America and the righteousness of war, and celebrate what we know is despicable. Sometimes it makes me wish for death, for the peace of it. But I know the awful truth, as James Baldwin wrote, that 'people who shut their eyes to reality simply invite their own destruction, and anyone who insists on remaining in a state of innocence long after that innocence is dead, turns himself into a monster.'* And I would rather be maimed and broken and in pain than a monster."
— Chris Hedges in The Greatest Evil Is War

* The James Baldwin quote above is from "Stranger in the Village," in The Collected Essays of James Baldwin (New York: The Library of America, 1998)